**Disclaimer** This is a sad post, I need to get thoughts out, and I didnt got back and read it to check if it all makes sense. Im at a loss now and Amber is so much more**
The past two days of my life have been very trying and very hard. With that being said they have been even more trying and devastating for my Love Amber.
Early This Morning at 1:15am we lost our son, the light in our life together , Bogart.
Bogart was our son by all terms and definition, Before I came along he had just a mom a mom that found him hiding under a truck all alone while it rained and thundered. He was scared, malnourished and for him Amber was his savior and from there forward his Mom.
From that day Amber spent the next month nourishing him back to health, Thousands of Dollars at the Vet and all of her time making sure that he would live and he did. He lived everyday like a small child would. He went for car rides, he went on road trips to Tennessee, He would go swimming in lakes, chase geese, chase frogs and squirrels, he lived. In his short 9 years he lived more than most of us live in our entire lives. He saw the world from the passenger seat of my car on a daily basis.
Last night, we lost Bogart. There was no rhyme or reason to it, he was by all means visibly healthy the evening before, running jumping playing. The next morning he wasn’t really moving about. He was lethargic and panting, we rushed him to the emergency vet they started him on IV fluids, ran a bunch of tests, took tons of xrays and found that he had some air in his stomach, a slightly enlarged heart, and a little fluid in his lungs. They wanted to keep him overnight for observation and them transfer him to our regular vet in the early morning.
Amber called at 8 to check on him, he was stable and sleeping..
Amber called at 10:30pm his heart rate was elevated, he was in pain, his condition had worsened, they said call back at 11. We didn’t, we left our home and rushed to the Vet ER.
We laid and sat on the floor with Bo, for a hour, near the end of that hour he started whimpering and was in pain, he started to become unresponsive.
They rushed Bogart in the back and began CPR, they were able to get his heart to start back up and he began to breathe again.
He stabilized, and then his big Loving heart gave up.
We lost him, It still doesn’t seem real Im waiting for him to run around the corner but he wont.
We spent a hour with him after that, letting him know how much we cared and how much we loved him. I loved him, more than I have loved some people.
To me Bogart wasn’t a dog he was a son, a companion, a sounding board when I needed to talk a friend and someone that became family.
I cant imagine what Amber feels, I can only guess its the worse feeling of loss ever.
I cherish every moment spent with Bo, every second every waking minute. I learned from him, I became better because of him. I hope that there is something after death, because thats the only way that I am going to be okay about him is knowing that when im gone, Ill see him again and we can take a car ride again.
